Don't kill me

I know what you are going to say reading this post, probably 'bitch either post something or just shut down your blog'.

Well I'm not shutting it down, so that's good news I guess. (innocent smile)

I really don't know what up with me it's just I got busy. I know excuses excuses, but seriously it's like I can't seem to sit down and write something. I love the characters in 'Can we just be us?' and I can't seem to stick to one scenario, I keep changing the story over and over.

But I finally know where it's going, so I'm going to be posting regularly. So please don't kill me.

Can we just be us? Part 37

Part 37

The moment Meera opened her eyes she remembered the events of last night. It was the first time he acted that way, making an impulse move and hugging her and she knew she wanted more. She laid there for a few minutes and decided to get started since Saeed's home coming party was later today.

Getting out of the room she decided to make breakfast,  that was when Hamad came out of the bedroom looking sexy as hell.

Hamad: morning

He said scratching his head and dragging his feet, he sure slept well

Hamad: how did you sleep?

But what he really wanted to know is what she thought about what happened

Meera: good

Actually answering both questions

He got seated and waited for breakfast to be served

Hamad: ready for today?

Meera: got everything, the food will be here by 6 and the guests will arrive at 7

Hamad: it's nice of you to do this for Saeed

Meera: he deserves something special

Hamad knew she missed Saeed and wanted to do whatever she could to make him feel at home again.

...

Applying the final touches to her makeup the door bell rang interrupting her lipstick rituals. She buzzed him in and continues applying her lipstick. The door was already open so he let himself in. 

Saif: ready

She was bending towards the mirror real close getting the lipstick right on her lips. He noticed how she focused on what she was doing looking all sexy. The slightest thing turned him on and he wondered how the hell did she have that effect on him. 

Hessa: I am now, did you bring the gift

Saif: yes I got it

He tends to forget things but her constant reminders always came in handy. Since it was a home coming party there were attending they had to bring a gift and it was one gift from the both of them. It was just something they did as a couple besides driving there together. They both could have drove there and meet at the party but it's just  felt right doing it this way. It scared him sometimes how it got comfortable being with each other most of the time despite they still took it slow in the sex department. 

They got in the car and drove away. Reaching their destination they got out of the car and Saif walked to her side putting his hand in hers, where it belonged. They walked side by side entering the house welcomed by the man of the hour Saeed, Meera and Hamad.

Hessa: welcome back

They hugged and kissed

Saif: from the both of us

He gave him the gift 

Saeed: thanks for coming

The couple separate ways as they both went to talk to some friends

Meera: everything going well?

Hessa: you could say that

She looked back to see Saif looking right at her while talking to Hamad

Meera: should I be jealous right now

Hessa: calm down would you

Meera: it's nice seeing you like this, happy and all

Hessa: you mean sexually frustrated

Meera: but its working isn't it?

Hessa remained quite

The next day...

Hamad was on his way to the office when he remembered to call a friend of his that he owed for doing him a favor by hiring Meera's brother Ahmed.

Hamad: hala, hala eb3alawi

Ali: shol25baar?

Hamad: El7emdillah,  agool basherni,  sho el 25baar ma3a Ahmed Al x?

Ali: haih, kl shay tamam

Hamad: El7emdillah

Hamad was glad to hear that, he was happy to hear that everything was resolved. He just hoped that meera's brother would take charge of his own life and start doing things on his own.

...

Driving back home all Meera did was think, but the best part of her day was walking in the front door to find Hamad already home, watching TV with a drink in his hand. All the thoughts she has disappeared from her mind.  He looked back towards the entrance and smiled to her.

Hamad: hi there, how was your day?

Meera: the same as always

It took her a few seconds to settle in and take a seat next to him

Hamad: you're a mess

He said laughing

Meera: thank you

He grabbed her legs and lifted them up placing them on his lap. He started to slightly squeeze her right leg then the left

Hamad: they got you all stressed out

Meera: what about you, how was your day?

Hamad: pretty good, not as busy

She let out a deep breath and closed her eyes for a second

Hamad: Sara is still staying at your mom's?

Meera: yes, mom wanted to spend time with all of them

She had her pencil skirt on which did not help with the situation. He was touching her bare legs and giving them a slight squeeze. She felt the palm of his hands slide on her legs and all she did was close her eyes and imagine his hands going further up touching her. The slightest touch between them ignited sexual tension.

Hamad on the other hand noticed her close her eyes and her breathing got heavier. His eyes automatically jumped to her lips. All he thought about was when she kissed him and it felt right, all he wanted is to feel them again.

She opened her eyes and saw him looking at her, but this time she noticed how he looked at her, it was different. By this time something would have interrupted them or one of them would have pulled away by changing the subject. Her eyes did not look anywhere else but his, he got closer to her leaned his right hand on the sofa till his face was a few inches from hers.

She held her breath and laid still on the sofa but then said

Meera: I think I have to go and get ready for bed

He stayed the way he was for a few seconds then pulled back to let her stand up and walk away to the bedroom. He laughed wondering how she could screw with his head.

Can we just be us? Part 36

Part 36

Heading back home Saeed was having lunch and catching up with everything then going back to their mother's house

Saeed: you live here now? (Referring to Sara) what lie did you tell to make Meera agree

Meera: hey, I asked her to move in

After getting settled in

Hamad: how was everything there?

Saeed: El7emdillah,  it was good

Sara: oh please you probably flirted with every woman there

He laughed

Meera: you lost more weight every time I see you

Saeed: there was a gym close to my apartment

Saeed was a chubby teenager that everyone made fun of. Now he was a young man with a good built that ladies go crazy for.

Sara: where are you going to stay?

Addressing the elephant in the room, Meera wasn't the only one that has issues with heir mother, Saeed had it hard as much as Meera. Choosing to study abroad and not visit for the whole four years was to get away from all that.

Meera glared at her sister

Saeed: where else, I'm going to stay in my old room

Hamad: you are always welcome here

Saeed: I know, but I can't leave mother alone

He was feeling guilty for leaving on bad terms with her

Meera: ok, wash up, relax then we are heading there

...

Heading out the door Meera was nervous, she was nervous because all of her siblings are going to be in one house under their mother's roof. They haven't done that in a long time.

While driving Hamad could see the nervousness in Meera's face, she was always terrible at hiding her emotions. He could see her hands intertwined together trying to keep her nerves down. He extended his hand and gave hers a squeeze.

Hamad: you'll be fine (he whispered to her)

She smiled to him, he always knew what to say to her.

Arriving at their destination they all got out to the car and walked to the front door then let themselves in. Both Ahmed and Abdalla almost jumped at the sight of their brother. They were once close

Ahmed: welcome back

Hugging his younger brother that he hasn't seen in four years

Abdalla: mabe'3ait etrid

They laughed, when all three stood together anyone could tell they were brother, specially the older two (ahmed and saeed).

Their oldest sister Alya and her husband and kids were there as well, each welcoming back Saeed. Finally it was their mother's turn

Saeed: Hi mom

Mom: welcome home sweetie

She hugged her son tightly not letting go, she missed him and not seeing your own son for four years was too much

Meera saw her mother's eyes tear up as she wiped them away immediately. 

They all sat down and had their long needed family time. Hamad watched them enjoying their time, talking, laughing and joking around. He was glad for Meera and wished that it would be like this all the time.

Later that night

Both Sara and Saeed were staying with their mother so Meera and Hamad decided to go back home.

Hamad: it's good everyone was there

Meera: yes it was

She started out the Window which he noticed she did a lot when he drove

Meera: I guess it's going to be just you and I

What she said made Hamad nervous, he forgot how it was like to be all alone with just her.

They reached home and parked on their regular spot.

Doing their usual bedtime routine Hamad got into bed first while she followed with a sleeveless silky night gown that drove him insane on the inside.

Hamad: 'did she have to wear that'

Meera's point of view:

It seems to be working, I don't know is it working?  Do I want it to work? Omg what am I saying. But I do. Is he looking? Is he nervous? Should I walk around longer till he notices.

She walked around the room around bit more till she decided to get in the bed and under the blanket. Hamad was still trying not to make his eyes and mind wonder. It was hard, he had his hand on his chest feeling his heart beat.

Meera: it’s a little cold

He did not respond

Meera: I'll turn up the ac a little

That was when he got closer and hugged her to share his body warmth with her

Hamad: there is no need

Still hugging her, while his chin was on her shoulder facing the other way.

Meanwhile Meera had her face buried in his chest. His smell invaded her nostrils and it turned her on. What really got her is that she could feel him, smell and feel his body heat radiate towards her but what she really wanted to do is touch him, really touch him. 

Can we just be us? Part 35

Part 35

Summer was just starting and it was time for Meera's younger brother Saeed to come back home. He has been studying in the UK to get his bachelor's degree. Now that he has graduated, he was coming back which meant a lot to Meera.

She was making breakfast for four, one more than she was used to, getting everything ready she wanted it to be extra perfect for today. 

Sara: Kila ha 7ag sa33ood

She said seated on the kitchen stool waiting for the food, beside her was Hamad watching her cook. It was something he did a lot lately.

Meera: you are not even ready,  go and get ready please, we are leaving for the airport soon

Sara left to do as she was told

Hamad: I finally get to meet him today, you said he majored in public relations and management

(Sounding almost impressed)

Saeed was Meera's second younger brother. He was six years younger which makes him twenty two years old and a fresh university graduate. She had attended his graduation before getting married and now that he finished wrapping up everything he was finally coming back home.

Meera: just like you

She looked back at him

He watched how focused she was with preparing everything. The way she took care of everything and prepared so much for her siblings amused him. She would do everything for them, especially Saeed since they were the closest to each other despite the six year difference. They would share many things as they were younger, and it saddened her that he left for college. Hamad sensed that, without telling him he knew everything about her by the way she talks about things.

...

After having brunch Saif and Hessa went back to her house and have coffee while watching little TV or trying to.

Hessa: Meera is having a homecoming/graduation party for her brother Saeed this weekend

Saif: Hamad told me about it

Hessa: do we um- go together?

Even after confessing to each other and announcing to the world they were a couple they still did not know how to act like it. 

Saif: why not, I'll pick you up and we can get a gift together

He was seated on the couch with his back leaning against it completely relaxed. 

She sat next to him

Hessa: did you go on your run today?

Saif: twice

Looking at her with a deep intense look of intimacy. What he said got her aroused knowing that he wasn't able to control himself just as much as she did. She leaned in and kissed his lips, a simple peck on the corner of his lips.

He closed his eyes grabbed her arm pulling her right on his lap with her legs on each of his sides.

Hessa: how is that going for you

He took her shirt off stripping it away from her and laid his eyes on her breasts that were supported by a  black lacy bra.

Hessa secretly groomed herself and wore sexy underwear when they went out on dates despite their no sex deal. She secretly hoped something like this would happen.

Saif: I'm going again later

He got closer and kissed her right between her breasts, how much did he miss this feeling. She grabbed onto his hair from the nape of his head and slightly pulled

Hessa: your turn

She grabbed the ends of his shirt and pulled it over his head to reveal his rock hard abs that only got better in shape due to all the exercise he has been doing.

He kissed her neck right on her collar bone.

Hessa: we should stop

His kisses got more intense till he reached her lips

Saif: we should

But still continued with what they were doing. He sucked on her lower lip taking turns while his hand traveled to her back then on the hook of her bra. He felt it with the tips of his fingers  fighting the urge to set her free from it. And all she wanted to do is scream for him to do so.

Kissing her even stronger and stronger he decided to pull away and hold her from her shoulders, she knew what he wanted and it was for them to really stop before anything got out of control. Getting off of him and taking the seat next to him he got up gave her a quick peck on the lips, put his shirt on and walked right out the door.

...

Arriving at the airport, Meera checked the flight details and saw that Saeed's flight has already landed. Waiting impatiently she watched many people walk by with different luggage from old couples to newly weds to single bachelors returning from business trips.

The three of them were watching the people coming and going waiting to spot Saeed and he has finally showed up. A young man in his early twenties carrying his luggage behind him and walking towards them. He was tall, dark skinned with a good figure, a younger version of their father. Meera could see the heart broken girls he left behind.

Sarah: sa33ood

She gave him a big hug almost throwing herself at her brother's embrace. 

Saeed: yadibba

They never missed a chance to tease each other

After hugging his younger sister he walked over to his older sister and hugged her tightly. She was the one that raised him and directed him to the correct path as a teen. He kissed her cheek

Meera: how was the flight?

Saeed: tiring

Hamad stood beside Meera and watched the two catch up

Hamad: it's nice to finally meet

They hugged as a start of new relationship after all they were family

Can we just be us? Part 34

Part 34

Fatima: you still haven't seen the whole house, come on I'll give you the grand tour

Meera walked behind her while she showed her around the house. They got to the kitchen and found their mom mixing the salad. Meera offered to help and Fatima knew better not to do so

Mom: I'm almost done, go complete the tour, Fatima why are you showing her the kitchen

Fatima just laughed knowing her mother really well. She liked doing everything by herself in her own kitchen and served them when everything was done.

Fatima: our mother is really sentimental that she kept our rooms the way they were during our high school years

Meera: it's too pink (she said laughing)

Fatima: I know right, what was I thinking

They both laughed at Fatima's old interior design choices

Fatima: and this is Hamad's room

The room had wooden floors and wooden furniture. The bed had blue covers and blankets. There wasn't anything that stands out like a normal high schooler's bedroom should look like except for the book shelf filled with books ranging from non-fiction to young adult fiction novels.

Hamad: so you saw my bedroom?

He peeked through the doors and saw both his sister and wife chatting away

Meera: so this is how you were in high school?

Hamad: how was I?

Meera: geeky (pointing towards the books)

One of Fatima's boys started to cry

Fatima: and that is my queue

Meera walked by his desk and saw old photos of him in his football uniform with his team members.

Meera: a geek and a jock

He stood behind her

Hamad: still have that charming good looks (stroking his chin)

Meera: yes and that big ego

He laid in the bed and looked up at the ceiling

Hamad: I missed this room, so many memories on this bed

Meera: wow

He laughed

Meera: no wonder why it makes so many noises

She laid next to him on the bed, it wasn't as big as the one they had at home so they were pretty close to each other. He was surprised by her actions but it all came easy to her.

Meera: I wish I knew back in high school

Hamad: yeah?

He had in hand on his stomach and the other under his head

Meera: things would have been different

He turned his head looking at her

Hamad: you know we haven't talked about the kiss

Meera: that

Hamad: yeah

There was a moment of silent the Meera turned her head to see Hamad looking 

right at her

Meera: sorry about that

Hamad: don't be

His eyes shifted to her lips, her cherry red tempting lips that he wanted to taste so bad

Meera: I don't know what came over me

He was about to move forward when his mother called out

Mom: dinner's ready

Hamad's point of view:

That was close, I don't know what was I going to do if mother haven't called out for us. Should I be worried? She looks so beautiful tonight.

...

The ladies decided to have a girls night out due to the events that happened during the weekend.

Aisha: I'm really glad to see you happy

Hessa: thank you (blushing)

Meera: she is actually blushing believe it or not

Aisha: and you did not believe in love

Hessa: people change their minds

Aisha: oh do they now

Meera: leave her alone

Hessa: you look grumpier that usual

Meera remained quite which gave her away immediately.

Aisha: talk right now

Meera: what nothing happened

Hessa: then definitely something did happen

Meera: it was just a kiss

Aisha: hamad kissed you?

Meera: I kissed him

Hessa: you did?

Meera: what it's not like we had sex

Hessa: well don't worry no sex for me either

Aisha: why the hell not, its suppose to be more intense and intimate now, its suppose to be better than ever

Hessa: we are waiting

Meera: for what?

Hessa: I don't know, taking things slow I guess, it just that so many things happened, I don't want to mess it up again

Can we just be us? Part 33

Part 33

After the social event ended the guests were starting to leave.  Walking hand and in hand and got in the car. Saif was driving

Hessa: how do you do this?

Saif: do what?

Hessa: back there, in the garden just stop like that?

She came right out with it wanting to know his answer, he remained quiet, caught off guard

Hessa: you are not seeing anyone else right,  because if you were you would tell me

Saif: no just you 

He remained calm looking at her panic while asking her questions

Hessa: don't you feel turned on?

He laughed at how abrupt she was

Hessa: no really, we haven't had you know... for a few weeks now, don't get me wrong, I think we should keep it slow in that department, but how can you handle it?

Just having this conversation was making her hot and bothered

Saif: I run... a lot...

Comforting her, showing her that she wasn't the only going crazy with all the waiting

Hessa: you do?

Saif: yes, every morning

He looked turned his head to her and saw her blushing. She actually got embarrassed asking all that

Saif:  join me tomorrow for my run

Hessa: okay, I think I will

What can go wrong? 

The next morning...

Sara: this is the information about the internship

She grabbed her laptop and placed it in front of Meera to show it to her clearly.

Meera: you will be doing this when?

Sara: during the summer for a month then I'm going to enroll is some business classes

Sara changed the tabs on the internet page in her laptop which had the college that she enrolled in including the study plan and everything else. Meera was impressed to see her sister well organized with everything planned out.

Meera: that is good, so you planned everything?

Sara: yes and Hamad helped

He has been doing that a lot lately and Meera couldn't thank him enough. All those feeling she developed after briefly kissing him started to get stronger and stronger day by day. Just when she started to fantasize about him he walked towards them

Hamad: what are we talking about?

Sara: college plans and everything else

Meera: what time should we be at your parents?

Hamad: around 6 for dinner

...

She parked her car in the public parking and started walking towards the pavement. He was already there warming up his body while in gym shorts and a t-shirt. Anything he puts on was fine, she snapped back to reality focusing on the main point of the day was not to think about it. She had her gym tights on with her sleeveless gym shirt. It gave him a full view of her toned body.

Saif: 'maybe this is a bad idea'

She walked up to him

Hessa: morning

Saif: morning

he gave her a quick peck on the lips

Saif: ready? 

Hessa: yes

She wasn't sure what she was ready for

After running for about 45 minutes Saif was drenched in sweat not from being tired but for running faster and harder this time.

Hessa: all done?

He looked at her one more time as we walked to her car to grasp a bottle of water and a towel. Her being with him in that tights defeated the purpose of this run

Saif: I need one more lap

And with that he ran off leaving her behind

...

Hamad was parking the car while Meera sat in the passenger seat. He missed this spot, where he always parks his car. He missed the house now that he is living alone with Meera.

Hamad: ready?

Meera: I'm a little nervous

Hamad: you are?

Meera: do your parents know about our deal?

Hamad: no one does

She was nervous because she knew what was coming behind those doors. The congratulatory and the talk about the honeymoon and marriage life then maybe kids. She wished that she did not have to lie especially to his parents whom she treated as her own.

Hamad: if you want to tell them, I am fine with it, we will

Meera: there is no need for that

They got out the car and walked towards the door. Right before the doors opened Meera slipped her arm into his grabbing onto him to sell it. They have been living with each other for a few months now and just the slightest touch, the slightest skinship between them would send electricity down his spine. They would only hold hands in public. When they were at home he would see her change or asleep with nothing but a t-shirt and panties but did nothing about it and it drove him wildly insane.

His mother opened the door pulling them both into a hug

Hamad: hello mom

Mom: look at the both of you

Meera: how are you auntie?

Mom: I'm good sweetie, come on in

She led them to the living room where Fatima was seated with her kids

Hamad walked to his sister and gave her a kiss then sat on the floor with both of his nephews and niece. He missed them so much since he saw them occasionally. He missed out on a lot and he hated that.

Meera sat on the couch with Fatima chatting the night away glancing at Hamad watching him with the kids. She smiled at the scene...

I'm back

I know you have heard me say this before, but seriously I'm back. 

I realized that I haven't posted for around five months, which bad you guys. this is bad, I know.

I am committing to finishing the story and posting regularly. To whoever is still waiting for me to finish this story, sorry I let you down. I promise to follow through.